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Vow
Talathion... 
Your name is signed
Inked in my blood, across my mind
My pulse, my air and bone and soul
You sing my veins;
You breathe me whole. 
I swear to you my strength and youth
A life of sweet and bitter truth
And every silver hair I earn
Every secret that I learn. 
Upon your altar I have lain
My verse and music, each refrain
My joy and suffering, my art
The close-writ pages of my heart. 
I yield my body, for to bear
Our passion, love — our union's heir
And every work of hand or voice
Every lesson, every choice.
And when at last I fail in breath
I give the hallow of my death
The light of every memory...
And afterward, eternity.
2/26/18
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Death in the Dark
Adlyn was warm in Jack’s arms, the patchwork blankets pulled close around them, the solar lights dwindling as the batteries ran down. Outside the wagon, the wilderness chattered and creaked and moaned with the wind off the mountains, full of nothing and anything; Jack pulled her closer, a talisman against the dark and unknown. Adlyn smiled, settling her lithe form closer; she was still full of wonder at the newness of the love between them, still star-struck by his blue eyes. Having such a dreamboat as her first lover... she often pinched herself to make sure it was real, feeling strange and grown-up... but then she usually spat over her shoulder, fingers crossed, and laughed at herself for her childhood superstitions.
“How did you manage to survive on the streets, ever since you were six?” Jack murmured suddenly, his normally-voracious curiosity on fire for his first love, wanting to know everything about her. He shook his head; having had a nurturing and protected c
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Wakening Summer
The robin's call the only sound
Tugging on the strings of dawn
Spring this year is almost gone
Dandelions all mown down
Mourning dove, heart aching
Calling in the gloaming light
A threnody for fading night
Blue horizon, dawn breaking
Song sparrow's lilting trill
Sweet grass scents the morning dew
Breath of wind that lifts anew
Spring's changes finally still
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Dandelions
Growing like a weed, I remember
In childhood.
Now I stand in green grass with winter-pale feet
Dying like a tree returning to earth
By degrees,
Stepping down,
Disembodied, disconnected
From the cycle of living.
Around me: dandelions.
Profuse, ebullient
Is anything so unthinkingly alive
As these?
Children's voices rise and fall
On spring lawns all around me.
I chose barrenness. And here I am, solitary
My seeds to every quarter flown
Fallow, directionless, alone
Seeking sanctuary from the litany of storms
Howling in a springless heart.
I look down, seeking silence. I am
Surrounded by faces turned all together
To the sun.
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Literature
Then at Last, Rain
Petrichor and psithurism
Soliloquy: a solipsism
Rewrites winter's palimpsest:
A threnody for season's rest.
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Ides of March
Rete mirabila
Forest winter-flensed
Stark against
Dusted cirrus glaucous sky
Clotted dark of evergreen
Bitter wind, rheumy eye
Boot bottom mucky meltwater
Sloppy slurry in the gutter
Sullied snow disintegrates
With the rest of my emotional state
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Winter
Fire without discipline burns
The djinn from the bottle
Leaving darkness and pain
In the aftermath of its bright blossom.
Pull the blanket of winter over me
Give me silence, cold, absence
I will heal.
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Literature
James
James, he cries out in his sleep, for the third time this week. Who was James?

I watch pain and distress flow down the well-studied lines of his face, melting back into a waxen semblance of tranquility, the slow measured cadence of breath in deeper abysses of sleep. Time and near darkness play havoc with comprehension, I see motes of not-quite-anything, incoherent in the stuffy sleep-heavy stillness. Who was James?
Having admired Richard Lehman’s writing for so many years, it still feels unreal that we are seeing each other, sleeping together. But the tears that come unbidden, unheeded, the calling out — none of which he recalls in the light of day, nor does he explain, turning distant and laconic the one time I asked — give the nights an air of surrealism. Well, that and the dreams that always wait to ambush me, the moment my head touches his pillows. Repositories of lost ideas, leaked away in the night?
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Three boys skateboarding on the si
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Late Autumn
November's hoary, hollow bones are dry;
A hennaed rattlebag against the sky
Which blithely turns its fading face — 
Its cloudy eyes and aging grace — 
Behind a brittle veil of lace
Refusing to comply.
No scent of snow, no silvering of ice;
This fallow dithering begets a price:
Unseasonable hazel still
Must feed the Dark, the dying chill.
So let the blood of autumn spill...
December's sacrifice .
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Fragile

Mon Mar 19, 2018, 12:26 AM


So… apparently I am still more fragile than I might have hoped, this many years into the mental health odyssey. I don't deal well with bad news, especially as it pertains to my terrifying, obscure future. *Sigh.* I spent Friday night/Saturday morning — 12 hours — in the hospital.

I didn't lie; I told the truth about the likely source of my affliction, which saves everyone time and annoyance. (I've worked in medicine as a vet, so I have a personal appreciation of this.) I'd been stupid and was suffering for it — masticatory muscle dystonia, which is the incredibly uncomfortable clenching and twisting of the jaw muscles. It was three hours before I was looked at. And then I won access to a small beige room down an oppressively beige hallway, at the entrance of which a guard sat. My belongings were taken away "for safekeeping". Despite the pain, this was the worst part of it for me. It was frightening, I was not allowed to flee, and I'd forgotten my phone, so I was alone. I wanted my safe holt at home, under the covers with cats scattered across the comforter like wildflowers, breathing out comfort and contentment. Wanted it badly enough that I shook, and turned the lights out in the small room.

The rest of the beige corridor housed other occupants — extremely agitated and garrulous occupants. They shouted their litanies of wrongs done them, their frustrations, their distress, calling each other names. I stayed silent, and shook in the dark, my panic level rising hour by hour. A nurse came by with a pill that did, in fact, eventually alleviate my painful symptoms. She wouldn't tell me what it was. The guard came by and chatted — he was a pleasant human being, and tried his best to help the temporary inmates of the beige corridor, playing intermediary, fetching blankets and pillows and styrofoam cups of water or juice. Each time a nurse came by, she was someone I hadn't seen before… but they all wore identical expressions of "there, there, ducky. Just stay patient and do what you're told and it will all be okay." It was meant to be sympathetic, I know — after all, everyone has awful days. It was dehumanizing.

Finally, I was able to speak with the psych resident. He was calm, kind, had a gentle sense of humor, and was patient. He also was the first person who took the effort to explain to me what processes were underway with regard to my temporary stay, and followed through on his promises. I drove home dry-eyed and bleary in the sheeting pale light of midday, so tired I couldn't sleep when I got home and curled up with my cats.

Jonesymin was waiting for me. He'd fallen asleep watching a movie with me the night before (because storytelling fox is narcoleptic Wink/Razz ), and when he woke, it was to my message that I was heading for urgent care. He'd been awake and worried ever since (because storytelling fox is also a bit of a worrier... not that that's a bad thing, necessarily). But having my BFF there to comfort me and be comforted in turn… made it feel like I was finally home.

I have follow-up appointments, starting Tuesday. I think I'll hide in my holt until then, perhaps work on some unfinished projects so I can put away the materials. I'm considering spring cleaning, although with a distinct lack of enthusiasm. I wish, on Tuesday, that it won't be fear driving  me out of the house, but hope.

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